Yesterday was really strange. And I'm really glad its over. Now its tomorrow, which is actually today, and right now, I want to blog about yesterday. (Haha, Captain Semantics strikes again!)
Yesterday I was crocheting a scarf whilst waiting for MSO rehearsal to end and one of our violinists came up to me to say hello. She isn't playing on this concert series because her string quartet is doing some touring and she can't make the concerts, so I presumed she just stopped by to say hello. I rather innocently asked her how her quartet stuff is going and she burst into tears.
Um....
I didn't exactly know what to do, and I certainly didn't anticipate that response. Seems that there are some personnel issues within the group that she is taking pretty hard. Someone's not speaking to someone else, won't accept an apology, blah blah blah. This is not some hack violinist, y'all. This is an extremely talented violinist who seems to have a fantastic career, complete with two orchestra gigs, a teaching position, and a nearly full time string quartet, complete with recordings and tours and the like. And all I could say was, "Wow, I'm really sorry." And give her a hug.
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Craziness in the horn section. Next week is the March Young People's Concerts and I'm playing 3rd now. I wouldn't care, except that DB is conducting, and he scares me. I don't want to take my complex about playing in University Orchestra and apply it to my "professional career." I can't help it, though, the dude scares me. When he is on the podium I become a shaking, scared, timid horn player who can barely slur an octave.
And on the topic of the horn section, why won't LK be a leader? Why won't she tell BM or MS or
me that we're out of tune? Why won't she make comments regarding articulations or style or line? Its her job as principal to make decisions and tell us to change stuff. And I wouldn't care, but the lack of leadership is starting to mean a lack of quality, and
that bothers me. Especially since I'm sitting fourth and can hear everything from the other four bells. Trust me, I can hear that we aren't matching and aren't sounding cohesive.
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Went to the White Horse with JJ and KK, two musicians who have spent some time playing abroad. And they think I should do it. They think I should go to Jerusalem. And when they talk about it, I think that I should go, too.
Unless a job in America presents itself, this blog will probably change its title to something like, "But I'm not Jewish" sometime in August. Why the hell wouldn't I take a job like this? I'm young, single, and have no better options here. I can lay around and freelance in Philly or I can take a JOB. A full time orchestra job. The thing I've been working towards since I started playing horn when I was TEN YEARS OLD.
A job. Playing. Every day. And getting paid to do it.